| ITS 2024!!!!!!!! FUCKING HELL! This year is either gonna be the best or suck so fuckin bad (both). Lets see how it'll gOoOOoOoo.... I'll try and make sure to update this page once in a while. |
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| I genuinely have no one to live for anymore, not irl at least. My one friend doesn't talk to me and I just got broken up with by someone else. Everything's back into it's pattern of shittyness until I do something to change it, but I find being in a cycle of eternal sadness to be comforting at times. I think when I die I'll be reincarnated into a feline, a wild cat made to roam the forests? It's always been something I've thought about. After this life I'll be free, again. It's been a dream of mine to wake up early in the morning, 7am-ish? And get dressed, brush my hair, make sure I showered the night before; brush my teeth even. I wanna look nice. Then, I leave my house and head to some forest, probably the one at the park by my house. I'll sit there for a bit on the ground, it'll most likely be cold out, but I won't mind. Being in the forest, nature surrounding me and being content with what I'm about to do; I'll down a bottle of pills or two, maybe slit my wrists. Then I'll lay back, looking up at the sun rising in the sky as the life drains from within me. But, who's to say that sense of life hasn't left already? Ideally, wether it be a sick hallucination or not; a cat will come by and sit by my side, hopefully to welcome meinto the afterlife of sorts. |